Grief


I wrote this poem the day after my grandfather's funeral.


Grief

I woke up this morning with raccoon eyes,

My head heavy with the fog of the day before.

In my closet, I glanced at my winter blacks,

And reached instead for bright blues and reds.

I am tired of the blackness, darkness, grief.

The sun is shining, the sky is blue, and my flowers are growing.

I want to shed this sadness like an old snake skin.

But the scales still remain around my heart.

Comments

  1. UnknownMay 14, 2010 at 7:54 AM

    The emotions and the way they are expressed are marvellous!

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  2. RyanMay 14, 2010 at 11:51 AM

    Beautiful poem I'm sure your grandfather would have loved it. I've some good news to share with you, as you know I'm a big fan of your blog - so I'm sharing the Prolific Blogger award with you - go here to claim it: http://www.scotlandhereandnow.com/

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  3. JollyPrincessMay 16, 2010 at 6:48 PM

    Lovely poem, straight from the heart.

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  4. Christina TerrellMay 18, 2010 at 6:35 AM

    I'm sorry for your loss, love. But I'm happy that you're able to put some emotion down on paper. When times get tough, remember this quote:

    "What we have once enjoyed, we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us." Helen Keller

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  5. UnknownMay 18, 2010 at 2:00 PM

    This is beautiful and I know precisely how you feel.

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  6. SusieMay 24, 2010 at 2:08 AM

    What a great way to express your sorrow. I, too, feel like the scales are still around my heart. That is a great photo of Dad.
    Aunt Susie

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